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5 Sanity Savers When Life Brings On Chaos

Over the past months, there were many instances where chaos ruled my life.  Despite trying to control things it just wasn't an option.  Oh, I tried to make it an option...don't get me wrong...but the more I tried...the more my sanity was…

I Am the Keeper of My List

I am overweight, plus size - or fat - really, I don't mind either term because I know they are all true.  I find the word "fat" lacks a certain level of political correctness or politeness.  "Overweight" is the term the doctor uses when I…
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A letter to my baby on his first day at daycare

Where to begin....[takes deep breath] To "My Sunshine" - Today is the first day you will spend out of my care.  A day that's been looming in my mind since you came into this world. The day that would simultaneously break me and help…

I give myself permission.

So - in the early morning hours - before I met my son - I decided to create a permission slip. I wrote down the words and phrases that I felt would allow me to get through the hours, days and months following his birth.
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Create: to bring something new to existence

The ability to fix something is deeply rooted in the ability to control it. It took me a long time to understand that I can't control everything and everyone around me. I was finally met with such a barrage of things that were out of my control that I had no choice but to concede. Hysterically crying, in a heap on the kitchen floor - I waved the white flag at the universe as the tears came down and my heart grieved the loss of control.