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A letter to my baby on his first day at daycare

Where to begin....[takes deep breath] To "My Sunshine" - Today is the first day you will spend out of my care.  A day that's been looming in my mind since you came into this world. The day that would simultaneously break me and help…

I give myself permission.

So - in the early morning hours - before I met my son - I decided to create a permission slip. I wrote down the words and phrases that I felt would allow me to get through the hours, days and months following his birth.
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Create: to bring something new to existence

The ability to fix something is deeply rooted in the ability to control it. It took me a long time to understand that I can't control everything and everyone around me. I was finally met with such a barrage of things that were out of my control that I had no choice but to concede. Hysterically crying, in a heap on the kitchen floor - I waved the white flag at the universe as the tears came down and my heart grieved the loss of control.